You know I see people doing all these things termed normal, fun and I just don’t get it.
Now it’s a Sunday people my age are mostly totally doing the normal stuff, partying, socializing.
Not because I can’t, or I can’t afford but mentally and spiritually even if I try I fail.
Am always obsessing over what am doing, thoughts, knowledge, reading people, Future e.t.c.
I wish I could stop, take a break from my brain but that won’t happen.
Been thinking about this. And I think this is what has been limiting my potential.
You know I kept telling myself if I achieve this I will relax, I have come to terms, that won’t happen. The more I achieve the more I want. The better I want.
And that Journey to what I want is the Fun and joy for me. It’s like a movie 😅.
I have accepted that there are Psychological wounds that won’t heal.
I have accepted that there are experiences I won’t experience and things I will never have.
But For my Plans I am all in.